I think it’s so crazy that this prompt is about jobs, when I literally had an entire breakdown moment regarding my job. I’m going to be extremely authentic and vulnerable for just a moment.
I am currently a dispatcher. This job came straight from God. Before I got this job, I was without a job for a couple months. I would quit every job I had before that because they were either required too much of me and not enough pay, or inconvenient to my baby’s schedule.
I was full time streaming games on twitch and of course I wasn’t making anything but about five hundred dollars a month. I was living off of money I had saved up while serving the military. This money sustained me for about 8 months, it could’ve been longer if I wasn’t being so irresponsible. But we live and learn.
So, I applied to this dispatcher job and went in for an interview. At this point I was doing interviews almost everyday. So, I kind of got the jitters out because deep down, I was expecting a no. One lady told me I deserve better and she didn’t want to hire me because I was over qualified and I should be striving for something greater. But I was willing to do anything at that point.
So, the dispatcher job called me in for a second interview. I was opened and honest. The manager asked me what would I be doing if I didn’t get the job, and I told her continuing to stream. I trusted God, so I didn’t worry if I didn’t get a job. I had days when I was down, but God was seeing me through it. My sister even told me I need to get a life. She said it in a joking manner, but deep down it hurt me. Here I am, a twenty four year old divorced veteran, back home with a toddler. I already felt as if I failed at life. Before the Marine Corps, I had never had a real job. So, everything was new to me.
However, two weeks later I randomly got a call from the job and they were like we want to hire you and can you start Monday. I was so happy because I knew it was God. Right when I thought He forgot about me, there He was right on time.
Fast forward to today, it’s almost been a year since I’ve been in this job. Now, this blessing from God is my normal. Something that I prayed for has became my normal. I found myself stressed because this blessing is now not enough to sustain me. Since going through the divorce, I now have extra bills to pay like my lawyers. God has straightened me up as far as budgeting. I was so scared to look at my bank account before, and now it’s my normal. Budgeting has brought peace into my life and thinking before I buy.
To get back to my breakdown yesterday, I was thinking about finding another job because I have to bring more income in. So, I went for a run and sat at the lake to pray and ask God for guidance. The two people I spoke with told me to speak to my boss because she wouldn’t want to lose me. Asking for a race is new to me, I didn’t want to upset anyone or make them feel as if I’m ungrateful. So, I didn’t say anything and on my long drive home, I received a text.
It was from my boss, and she told me how grateful she is for me and how she was going to give one of my responsibilities to someone else because she don’t want me to be overwhelmed. At this point, I was overtaken with emotion because how did she know. What made her text me that in that moment.
I didn’t know how to feel. I didn’t know if I should be happy or sad. I prayed more and even screamed in a pillow, which made me laugh a little in the midst of my crying. But I felt God telling me to be honest with her about what was bothering me. So, I did. She was so eager to help and told me how it’s something about me that she truly loves and cares for me. She spoke over me and gave me scripture to hold dear to bring me peace in my troubles. She reminded me that my favor comes from God and He is here with me in the storm.
My reasoning for telling this story is because my blessing came in the form of a job. God wanted me to meet my boss, she is like a mother to me and she is wise. God is intentional. When your blessing becomes your norm, we sometimes forget that we are living in something we cried and prayed for. So, look around and thank God for your circumstances.
When I was on the lake praying about what I should say to my boss, a guy walked up to me and said “I know you probably get this a lot, but you are beautiful.” Of course, I thanked him and accepted the compliment but I wanted to laugh because I think God has a sense of humor. I have prayed to God about dating again and potentially marrying again. However, in that moment I’m like God I don’t have time for this right now, I’m thinking about my finances and this guy interrupted my thoughts to tell me I’m beautiful. Maybe I just needed to lighten up, who knows.
I would love to hear some of your stories on how your prayers became your norm. Feel free to leave a comment below.
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