To Know Him, Is To Know You

This may seem childish to some who are on the more serious side, but I really enjoy playing and being silly. I believe as we became adults, society has almost beat us into submission of an idea that life is all about meeting goals and deadlines. It seems that striving to be this person by this age, has caused us to forget to have fun in the process.

As I am getting close to God, I am learning who He made me to be. He made me to be this beautiful, young, and fun filled woman. He has filled me with a joy that circumstances can’t take out of me.

I am able to walk around freely, knowing that all I have is all I need. I know who my provider is, so I don’t have to walk around stressed. I can smile with confidence, laugh with no worries, and just be joyful.

I believe it’s important to play sometimes, especially as a woman. That’s apart of our feminine nature. I suffered for a while because I grew up in a single parent home. My mom had to be strong, serious, and tough. This is not uncommon in a black household.

But that cycle breaks with me. Sure, my circumstances may look the same, being that I’m divorced now. However, I don’t have to do it all on my own. My Heavenly Father carries the weight of life. I submit to His will, and in return, He provides.

I do desire to be married again. This time I’ll be walking into it with a lot more wisdom and God will have a say in who this guy is. Whenever that day comes, I will be ready to then submit to my husband, because I will know that he is submitted to God.

I am saying all of this to say, I am a single mother, but I am not this strong, independent woman that doesn’t need a man. I recognize my needs, however I am moving on God’s timing. While I wait, I will continue to let my Heavenly Father soften my heart.

I’m not in a soft girl era, I am in a godly woman era. Everything about my life, will resemble The Kingdom.