From Pain to Victory: Finding Comfort in Music

What is your favorite genre of music?

This is so my lane. Since I was a little girl, I have loved music. Fun fact about me is that when I was younger my friends and I wanted to be a girls group, however I was the writer of the group. All of our songs, I wrote them. My friends brought the style and the looks. However, we gave up that dream as we got into high school. But my love for music never left.

I love Rap, but recently I have fell in love with Gospel and specially R&B Gospel songs. I love the soft tones and all the of the musical instruments in the background. It’s almost like the instruments speak to my soul.

I am very intentional about what I let enter my temple. So, I can’t just listen to anything. Everything I listen to builds me and speaks against the emotions I may feel.

God’s Word is clear about not stifling the Holy Spirit. He lives in us, so we can’t fill our temples with junk and expect to hear from God.

Who are you giving your ear to? Who are you letting minister to you when you’re sad or angry?

I can remember a time when I was violated by this man. After, I tried to suppress the pain, but I was angry. So, I started to listen to this song called “I Want His Soul.” I let this song minister to me. It was about taking someone’s life. Because in my head, that’s what I wanted. This song filled me with so much rage and anger. I went out one weekend with friends and over drank. Needless to say that night showed how much I was struggling with what had happened. I broke my windshield by kicking it and my friend said that I kept repeating to myself in a low tone that he needed to die. She said it scared her because that was not me. If I’m being honest, it scared me too. I have never felt that way before.

I unknowingly gave the devil a foot hold into my life. I was hurt and so I let hurt people minister to me through music. I let the anger build inside my heart and this changed my personality.

But no longer. I am not a victim, I am a survivor. I chose to live. I will no longer allow the enemy to have my heart. I gave it all to God and He healed me. So I can tell you this story without fear. I can tell someone that may have experienced the same pain that you can heal from this. It won’t have you forever. The sleepless nights will end. You will feel safe again. God is closer than you think. Give Him your pain and allow Him to heal you.

Allow Him to minister to your heart. Don’t listen to the world, who tells us to never forgive the people that wronged us. Forgiving is not for them, it’s for you. You have to let them go, so God can work in you. Vengeance is God’s, not ours.

I will end this post with a few songs that ministers to my heart and one of the songs are mine. The enemy kept telling me that I couldn’t rap for God, but God said try me and He helped me through it.

Happy Saturday!

I love you all and God loves you too!

Let me know if you like any of the songs in the comments!!