Middle Child Syndrome

I don’t know what it is but Im the most extroverted introvert there is. I enjoy my isolation these days. When I am in a room full of people, I am still in my own world.
I believe this comes from being the middle child. As the middle child, you never really fit in with your siblings, either they are too old or too young for your liking. You’re pretty much always in your own world. I always felt like I didn’t receive enough attention as the child in the middle, so I had to always be the best to receive praise and recognition from my family. This was something I had to allow God to break off of me because it started as accomplishments and blossomed into people pleasing.

Now, as an adult chasing after God after living a life of sin, I really don’t fit in. I thought the feeling of being the middle child was over. I’m a full grown adult, how do I still feel apart from my family.

I never knew choosing God could offend the people that claim to love me. Because I chose to repent, and I mean truly repent from my sins. Full three sixty, if it ain’t holy I don’t want it type of repenting. I mean everyday dying to myself, yet the people I love and I was raised with see this and scrunch their nose up at me.

This made me feel separated. They have gotten so use to seeing Luke warm Christians that it’s confusing to see someone like me raised in the same home as them, say yes to God and truly live it.

If you are experiencing something like this, don’t allow the enemy to change your way of living. I understand that my fight is not with my family, but with the spirits that are against the Kingdom of God.

If you feel isolated because you chose God, don’t grow weary. Your tribe will come, but sometimes God separates us when He is doing work in us. You are not alone. I am in this season as well, my best advice is to wait well and trust God. He knows your needs, and He will provide.